Anniversary -1

[davidn]

I find it very strange how the brain finds it necessary to dream - to make you feel as if you're somewhere you aren't. I also find it fascinating how you can move your limbs around by thinking about it, without any concious thought process going on whatsoever. I explained as such to Whitney, and she responded "Are you on crack?", so perhaps everyone else isn't quite as mystified by these things as I am.

Anyway, today is the negative-1st anniversary of Whitney and I. I can't remember who I stole that phrase from. Possibly mossop. I haven't really announced it yet because of the awkwardness of the invitations - the wedding's going to take place in California, so that makes it difficult for people in Britain to get there, and we have a very limited number of guests. There will be a reception in Scotland as well, so I'm going to invite most people I know to that rather than California. This, inevitably, will make people feel excluded from the wedding. It's all very stressful.

Comments

[the-twilighted.livejournal.com]

And *are* you on crack? :)

[e-to-the-ipi.livejournal.com]

What do you mean - "by thinking about it, without any concious thought"? Either you think about it, or you don't.

[stefan-lindner.livejournal.com]

*nods* well i never thought TOO much about it, but i thought about such things aswell.

[yemminie.livejournal.com]

I've thought about the limb thing too. More than most people probably. I've even sat and tried to move my limbs by willing it, rather than trying. If that makes sense. Like ok arm, now move. And it doesn't. But if just try to move it like normal, without thinking really - and you can't even really put your finger on how exactly it happens - it moves. Weird.

Of course, when I was younger I'd think weird morbid shit all the time, too. Like if I was holding a knife, I'd think in a weird dispassionate way about how easy it would be just to slice into myself. I didn't want to at all, and I wouldn't, but it freaked me out just the same. Or I'd be up high somewhere and I'd think how easy it would be to throw myself off - again, absolutely no intention of doing so, no interest in doing it, but there was the possibility. If one wanted to, one could. It would be so easy. There's nothing seperating one from death/injury save one's intentions. Freaky. I don't think about this sort of thing very often any more, but sometimes I do. I think I might be alone on that one though.

[raphx.livejournal.com]

I think I know what you mean. Nothing morbid, but things like if I just let go of a bottle, letting it smash on the ground, that sort of thing. Funny how the imagination works, even when it doesn't have anything to do with desire.

[mossop.livejournal.com]

:-) The next year will fly in, I'm told! :-D

[davidn]

Well, it looks like I didn't think about that sentence either.

[adararose-2.livejournal.com]

Nope, I do that to. It is utterly odd, and it always left me a little worried.

[distantj.livejournal.com]

Read "The Hypnotic World of Paul McKenna" and you'll never wonder such things about the unconcious mind again, it's totally changed my view of that sort of stuff.

[davidn]

I have thought about things like that, but... well, an electronic version of it. For example, in a dialog box when I could press the other option to completely reformat my hard drive, or something.