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Our family is alone in the house again - Justus left for Germany yesterday. He's got my e-mail address, though, so we'll still be able to talk to each other. It feels strange, in fact, living with the family again for the first time since Easter.
Last night people from my Sixth Year got together to have a barbecue over at Kinmuck. Most of these people are at Aberdeen University or the RGU, so I feel sometimes as if I don't fit in with them as much as I used to - I was a bit disappointed to find that many of the people I knew had appeared to turn in to arrogant nu-metallers in my absence, but they seemed to calm down a bit throughout the evening.
It was the first time that I'd met Amy's new boyfriend, in fact - I thought that I wouldn't be able to even look at them together, but I was fine. It's just when I talk to her alone that I remember everything that I regret, and in many ways it would be so much easier if I could just isolate myself from here. She regards me as one of her best friends, though, so I can't just say that I never want to see her again, especially when she sometimes relies on me for support, such as when her last relationship broke up. When I think about it, though, it seems unfair on me to have to come back to her. Am I just thinking of myself?
But I'm getting bogged down by this yet again. The rest of the evening was enjoyable, just the usual music video watching and having a football kickabout, and it was a good laugh seeing everyone again.
Last night people from my Sixth Year got together to have a barbecue over at Kinmuck. Most of these people are at Aberdeen University or the RGU, so I feel sometimes as if I don't fit in with them as much as I used to - I was a bit disappointed to find that many of the people I knew had appeared to turn in to arrogant nu-metallers in my absence, but they seemed to calm down a bit throughout the evening.
It was the first time that I'd met Amy's new boyfriend, in fact - I thought that I wouldn't be able to even look at them together, but I was fine. It's just when I talk to her alone that I remember everything that I regret, and in many ways it would be so much easier if I could just isolate myself from here. She regards me as one of her best friends, though, so I can't just say that I never want to see her again, especially when she sometimes relies on me for support, such as when her last relationship broke up. When I think about it, though, it seems unfair on me to have to come back to her. Am I just thinking of myself?
But I'm getting bogged down by this yet again. The rest of the evening was enjoyable, just the usual music video watching and having a football kickabout, and it was a good laugh seeing everyone again.
